What to do

How do I kick off being pissed when all that surrounds my mind is a kick in the shins and a bat to the head. How do I avail myself from these feelings. Do I continue praying or do I continue embracing? Maybe I should just pushed them away by whatever means necessary. They bothered me when I used to embraced them when i was younger why give them life again now?
I can't seem to help them coming to me but i can help do something about them. Maybe I should talk about it? maybe I should paint.. well I need to practice. Maybe I should game.. but that never usually helps. hmmm... what to do...I see pigeons... on top of the house...hmm....(eww that be to gross thought)