Bueno

A friend of mine says "Bueno" every time she wants to hang up.
As I am in the process of saying Bueno in this season of my life. I also have to say Hello. This season brought alot of pain and agony and its teaching me new things I never expected to have worked on in a million years.
What can I say? Is even though it is beneficial later on in my life(well the financial piece of this season), I can't say its a "treat" going thru it now. Food for though!

She's blowing smoke....

She never stops blowing smoke never letting me see the reality of things!(F.Y.I. this is an old sketch...which has already been finished... I will update this with the pictures of the finished version soon)

Yeah they are topless

well you do realize that they are naked you realize it really means nothing. The naked body shouldn'te feared or gated..admire it...understand it.. learn from it...Dont lust after it orquestion it... God gave it to us to admire...

peace n hae....n ....love...drugs .... n Rock n roll

My indian rocking chied...not finished..and underneathy is my evil Buddah... he is at peace hatin...all W.I.P.

You make me feel ....

I have a thing about drawing people throwing up...or Down!

I wanted to color this one ... just wasnt sure where to go with it.
Either way its an oldie but goodie

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Why complicate my life when what's in my mind is complicated enough as it is....
Has anyone really sat down and tried figuring out whats inside my head?
Good Luck

Well....its that time again!

So this is life...the other I was speaking to my supervisor and one thing caught my attention(outside of everything else she was saying) "I don't know what I want to do when I grow up".....I come to realize I don't either...I want to draw but I like to work with these kids....I also love the vacation time....I'm a easy man to please I guess but a difficult one to satisfy. My arguments aren't that difficult to understand ...I make thinsg simple for myself...why complicate my life?

I've lost my mind! I've Snapped!
Well I can't say I have but I can't say I haven't!
I always want to know what purpose things in my life have. What was the purpose? I can see how some things affect me immediately and I also see how somethings affect me for the worse in me and for the best in me.
I can't help but think I have a magnet for these things..as we all do. But God knows. I also know I have to think positive...If not I will loose my mind.

Answers!!

I get an answer that is in a form of a question. But the problem is that it hasn't been asked!. I wonder why these things continued to occur and why hasn't the Lord said anything to me...does He have to? No He expects me to just seek Him and I will know that I will find Him, in that I will be content with whatever comes into my life weather its good or bad. Confusing or frustrating! I often want answers but I never get them, I think its best that I just diligently seek Him and wait until he blesses me with His answer one question at a time. Why should I complain? He is never late or wrong. I am and always have been content with His response! I just forget and rush, I never respond to anyone rushing me, I do now understand how My lord feels when I am rushing Him. He just won't respond...What?!! He did make me in His image right?!

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Gaby.....Juan

PRETTY WOMAN

This Is a Pretty Woman who kill hearts that beat!
This is inspired by a woman whom I meet recently, a woman who tried to get the best off me and she almost did. She has no real focus in life, although she think she does. This is why she has so many eyes. The bottom eye is arising form her skin breaking it apart and setting its eyes on something else. Out of her mouth she spews nothing but venom, lies and deceit. With her words she can stop any man in his tracks if he is not smart. I cannot say much about this woman except she has cause a great deal of confusion in my life. Although she is very pretty her soul has a dark tint that only God can clear. She has allowed herself to become this beast that grows uglier by the minute. She will try to steal your heart and feed of you agony and pain. Out of your confusion she causes irritation and frustration, she is never clear as to what she wants. And although I may still want her I know its best to depart!
If I am not careful she may steal mine and destroy it as the many men who have fallen before me. How she entices me with words and calls my attention, touches deep within my soul with her soft caring hands and gestures, how my body follows but my mind drifts of into space into my state of Nirvana and seeks answers from actions and questions from answers. How this woman misdirects me, how she plays games with my head, I depart from her, she can only be trusted for one thing and that is nothing. How sad that a woman can fill my heart with hate, anger and demise of my dignity(which I gladly saved most of) frustration. I often wonder how I fall into these situations, how these woman call my attention. Where is the magnet on me that attracts them to me? Why o Lord does this happen to me? Is it to inspire me to draw? to paint such masterpieces? well let me not count my eggs before they hatch I am still in stage 1 and it is a W.I.P. I would like to see this on cloth possibly silk. It emphasizes my definition and my intentions as well as my vision and message. Lets see what I can come up with.
The End?

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Juan

Rattle Snakes

I often think that this is how my brain works!
..............and trust me there is more!.......
Fish Coffee
September 08

Well then?

Sometimes I wonder what is my purpose here in life. Why are the odds against me, or why do I think that they are, am I in the wrong part of the world, or was I born in the wrong time? Am I ahead of my time or do I not belong in any of the times? I ask Him(God) what it is, but he has yet to get back to me on that. I don't know. I don't know what is up or down any more. I feel like I'm in limbo and don't have anywhere to go. If I go left its the same thing and if I go right its the same thing. Its the same in any direction I go. So where too? Why am I the way I am and is there any benefit to my character and behavior? Do I need a benefit( no I really don't) can I be the way I am without asking for anything in return? Can I be accepted how I am (odd) without any expectations?
Are people expecting much from me or anything at all? Why are my actions questioned? Or do people need to question them to feel human and or in control, is it their lack of trust or their failure to see who is before them? Does this make me unique? Does it make me one in a whole? Or am I just like everyone else who is trying to figure out this world? Then if that is the case why are there people who are willing to cut each others throat to gain a goal? Rome was not built with the people killing each other. No! they worked together to built up their Utopian world with their thought of just and rule. I am trying to build the same things, but they are questioned, ridiculed and thought less off. People can be cruel but to what benefit to them is their cruelty worth? I often wonder how much would I gain if I was the opposite of who I am now. Then again I also question were would I be if I was a different person. I often wonder what would become of me if I just acted out on my anger! If I would just say EVERYTHING that is in my head, will people respect me ? will they be sicken by me? will they reject me? Will they love me? Will this make me stay in my limbo alone..People hate being lonely yet they usually jump the gun to the first moment they have to abandon their loneliness and be with someone. Then they wished they never have. I often wonder why haven't I jumped that gun? Well I know why, but then again it contradicts me as well. Am I loosing my mind or just become more intolerable? When they look at me what do they think? what do they say? Do they just see a soul with holes or a contained mad man? Are they scare for either good or bad? Do they feel worried? Do they think that its an adventure that will be short live or that its not worth venturing into. Or do they think its not an adventure at all its just a waste of time?...I'm lost in my own train of thought and I must dismiss myself into slumber if that is what I can call it.
Good Night
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Juan

Smokey-Elefunt!

We fill our lives with so much smoke that we never see where we are going, we begin to point fingers at others when in reality most of our problems started because of us. Sometimes what we need to do is just stop talking and think, allow The Lord to fill our lives with His presence and give Him a chance to help us clear the air.

.....So...Do ....I?

Why do I bring myself down here. and set myself up? Is this a test? Why do I end up in the "zone"
why can't I be content? DO I have a good life? DO I ? huh? why can't you answer me?
What not being what I want to be is a good life? Doing what I didn't go to school for is a good life. Not making the money I want is a good life? Not being with someone I want is a good life?
Why does something so good come by and tease me? What purpose did God have for this to happen? What choices do I have to do Lord? What?! Where do I go from here? Wat do you want me to Do LORD?!! Why haven't you told me? Why so quiet? where is the wind blowing in my life?If you tell me to jump I never ask a thing I just did it. and now that I ask, and now that i want to know where all this jumping is leading to I can't even get an answer. I never saw this coming! I know you did! Why didn't you warn me? what purpose is this...what purpose is all of this LORD!!!
What am I suppose to do here? this isn't an quantom leap episode. I just want a hint, som esort of direction. ....But what do I get??

Well Here we go again

Wow, life has a funny way of teaching yo things, for what purpose I don't know.
I begin to ask myself what purpose does all this have in my life. What ultimate goal am I reaching here that I am going to meet that I need all this training for?
I can understand why I have meet certain hardships in my life, God wanted to mature me. That makes sense, but is everything I go through for maturity. How mature can a person be? And on top of that if it isn't all for maturity than what is it for. Some things are just stupid, and some were pointless, what about those situations? Some situations taught me how to trust and others on how to love, forgive, bless and so on. But some WHY? well I don't know I do hope it has a purpose. I will be very mad if I find out that this had no purpose, no definition for my character, and it was God's way of having a good time. But I don't think God would do that. He is an awesome God. Aside all my hardships I can say far more is that He has blessed me. I am in the teachers union, my relationship with my father, is far better than it was when I was *(which we had none). I can't say my life has been a pain after pain. But there is one area in my life that still needs work on. I don't know how I always end up in the same position, and why do nice guys finish last. I often wonder if I can stop running get on a bike and get to the finish line and get it over with. A good friend once told me, "Juan there's nothing wrong with you, its the people I meet." Its not like I ask to be in these situations I just so happen to be"lucky" enough to be in them. Well more power to me. I have been able to hold on my own and move on. SO why not continue this good trait. Well God Bless Everyone.
Nothing crazy has happened to me, I just wonder when is this all going to end and I can start doing something new with my life that is worthwhile ? far more than my recent adventures. When can I go to the next step in my life and start learning new things. When can that one area of my life be filled and I can move on to working on a new project. do I keep hitting these walls??
When are you going to let me seethe light at the end of the this tunnel??

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Juan

life flirt

I always wondered what it was like to color outside the lines, to not live that same typical life I have become so accustomed to live. To becoming that vigilante that runs in the night causing all sorts of mayhem! Will this change peoples perspective of me? will it matter if they do?
What benefit do I have if I do break the rules just a little, is it worse if I do it willingly or by mistake. Its hard to not think its being done intentionally but I want to go down that road just once in my life. Smell that street air....She represent the edge, rage hunger and anger that has been growing inside of me. That spark of fearlessness, that hold no man back...She is my Tokyo, that seduces me into the light, into what I believe is my utopia...My Juantopia...
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Juan
My Japan!

El Chavo Sketch

Ok so now that i am finished I realized that his ginormeous Hammer is not on his shoulder... I guess I got so into coloring i wasn't paying attention. I will have to remake this DAMN This was so much fun I can't wait. either way If I get lazy I can always photoshop it.
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Juan

Flirt

Yeah she is such a flirt, I drew this from observation, it came out alright. I'm pretty happy of the outcome.
I got a few more to come!
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Juan

Some new Marker Sketch 5

This asian girl is full of shit. Whatever she went through or whatever she has makes her feel this way
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Juan