Answers!!

I get an answer that is in a form of a question. But the problem is that it hasn't been asked!. I wonder why these things continued to occur and why hasn't the Lord said anything to me...does He have to? No He expects me to just seek Him and I will know that I will find Him, in that I will be content with whatever comes into my life weather its good or bad. Confusing or frustrating! I often want answers but I never get them, I think its best that I just diligently seek Him and wait until he blesses me with His answer one question at a time. Why should I complain? He is never late or wrong. I am and always have been content with His response! I just forget and rush, I never respond to anyone rushing me, I do now understand how My lord feels when I am rushing Him. He just won't respond...What?!! He did make me in His image right?!

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Gaby.....Juan

PRETTY WOMAN

This Is a Pretty Woman who kill hearts that beat!
This is inspired by a woman whom I meet recently, a woman who tried to get the best off me and she almost did. She has no real focus in life, although she think she does. This is why she has so many eyes. The bottom eye is arising form her skin breaking it apart and setting its eyes on something else. Out of her mouth she spews nothing but venom, lies and deceit. With her words she can stop any man in his tracks if he is not smart. I cannot say much about this woman except she has cause a great deal of confusion in my life. Although she is very pretty her soul has a dark tint that only God can clear. She has allowed herself to become this beast that grows uglier by the minute. She will try to steal your heart and feed of you agony and pain. Out of your confusion she causes irritation and frustration, she is never clear as to what she wants. And although I may still want her I know its best to depart!
If I am not careful she may steal mine and destroy it as the many men who have fallen before me. How she entices me with words and calls my attention, touches deep within my soul with her soft caring hands and gestures, how my body follows but my mind drifts of into space into my state of Nirvana and seeks answers from actions and questions from answers. How this woman misdirects me, how she plays games with my head, I depart from her, she can only be trusted for one thing and that is nothing. How sad that a woman can fill my heart with hate, anger and demise of my dignity(which I gladly saved most of) frustration. I often wonder how I fall into these situations, how these woman call my attention. Where is the magnet on me that attracts them to me? Why o Lord does this happen to me? Is it to inspire me to draw? to paint such masterpieces? well let me not count my eggs before they hatch I am still in stage 1 and it is a W.I.P. I would like to see this on cloth possibly silk. It emphasizes my definition and my intentions as well as my vision and message. Lets see what I can come up with.
The End?

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Juan

Rattle Snakes

I often think that this is how my brain works!
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Fish Coffee
September 08

Well then?

Sometimes I wonder what is my purpose here in life. Why are the odds against me, or why do I think that they are, am I in the wrong part of the world, or was I born in the wrong time? Am I ahead of my time or do I not belong in any of the times? I ask Him(God) what it is, but he has yet to get back to me on that. I don't know. I don't know what is up or down any more. I feel like I'm in limbo and don't have anywhere to go. If I go left its the same thing and if I go right its the same thing. Its the same in any direction I go. So where too? Why am I the way I am and is there any benefit to my character and behavior? Do I need a benefit( no I really don't) can I be the way I am without asking for anything in return? Can I be accepted how I am (odd) without any expectations?
Are people expecting much from me or anything at all? Why are my actions questioned? Or do people need to question them to feel human and or in control, is it their lack of trust or their failure to see who is before them? Does this make me unique? Does it make me one in a whole? Or am I just like everyone else who is trying to figure out this world? Then if that is the case why are there people who are willing to cut each others throat to gain a goal? Rome was not built with the people killing each other. No! they worked together to built up their Utopian world with their thought of just and rule. I am trying to build the same things, but they are questioned, ridiculed and thought less off. People can be cruel but to what benefit to them is their cruelty worth? I often wonder how much would I gain if I was the opposite of who I am now. Then again I also question were would I be if I was a different person. I often wonder what would become of me if I just acted out on my anger! If I would just say EVERYTHING that is in my head, will people respect me ? will they be sicken by me? will they reject me? Will they love me? Will this make me stay in my limbo alone..People hate being lonely yet they usually jump the gun to the first moment they have to abandon their loneliness and be with someone. Then they wished they never have. I often wonder why haven't I jumped that gun? Well I know why, but then again it contradicts me as well. Am I loosing my mind or just become more intolerable? When they look at me what do they think? what do they say? Do they just see a soul with holes or a contained mad man? Are they scare for either good or bad? Do they feel worried? Do they think that its an adventure that will be short live or that its not worth venturing into. Or do they think its not an adventure at all its just a waste of time?...I'm lost in my own train of thought and I must dismiss myself into slumber if that is what I can call it.
Good Night
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Juan

Smokey-Elefunt!

We fill our lives with so much smoke that we never see where we are going, we begin to point fingers at others when in reality most of our problems started because of us. Sometimes what we need to do is just stop talking and think, allow The Lord to fill our lives with His presence and give Him a chance to help us clear the air.