Sunday, October 19, 2008

.....So...Do ....I?

Why do I bring myself down here. and set myself up? Is this a test? Why do I end up in the "zone"
why can't I be content? DO I have a good life? DO I ? huh? why can't you answer me?
What not being what I want to be is a good life? Doing what I didn't go to school for is a good life. Not making the money I want is a good life? Not being with someone I want is a good life?
Why does something so good come by and tease me? What purpose did God have for this to happen? What choices do I have to do Lord? What?! Where do I go from here? Wat do you want me to Do LORD?!! Why haven't you told me? Why so quiet? where is the wind blowing in my life?If you tell me to jump I never ask a thing I just did it. and now that I ask, and now that i want to know where all this jumping is leading to I can't even get an answer. I never saw this coming! I know you did! Why didn't you warn me? what purpose is this...what purpose is all of this LORD!!!
What am I suppose to do here? this isn't an quantom leap episode. I just want a hint, som esort of direction. ....But what do I get??

1 comment:

El Juan said...

I get an answer that is in a form of a question. But the problem is that it hasn't been asked!. I wonder why these things continued to occur and why hasn't the Lord said anything to me...does He have to? No He expects me to just seek Him and I will know that I will find Him, in that I will be content with whatever comes into my life weather its good or bad. Confusing or frustrating! I often want answers but I never get them, I think its best that I just diligently seek Him and wait until he blesses me with His answer one question at a time. Why should I complain? He is never late or wrong. I am and always have been content with His response! I just forget and rush, I never respond to anyone rushing me, I do now understand how My lord feels when I am rushing Him. He just won't respond1...What He did make me in His image right?!